She knows how insane what she's about to say is going to sound, but he asked to hear it.

"No matter how our relationship is...dad always looks at me and regards me in this way...I can't explain it. But I really fear seeing him because," and she half-laughs because she's a 20 year old woman talking about how her dad feels about her and this is almost absurd.

"Because I don't know what I'm going to do if he doesn't look at me that way."