Kim in her room

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Kim remembers her iPod started working again and puts it on. The music is better than silence, it makes it harder to think.

She is sure that Tony's okay. She keeps telling that to herself even though he hasn't come back. She also tells herself that she's not relieved he left. But that's a lie because she kind of is because she couldn't handle how he felt, the way he felt about himself she couldn't combat and she was sick of playing the blame game with people. Then again, right now, she doesn't want to be an adult. She doesn't want to comfort or maybe she just can't.

She can't believe he'd break his promise so easily.

Of course, 3 Doors Down would be playing. She can't go outside. She should, she knows, go down to the bar, stop sitting, but the thought of facing the outside world is almost paralyzing. The one constant she had in her life - no matter how she felt about her dad she knew he loved her - is gone. Now she feels adrift. She takes off the headphones.

"Do you have a family, Niles?" she asks her fish. "Do you ever miss them?"

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She closes her eyes and leans her head against him. She's relieved he's here. With her. In one piece and not...somewhere else.

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Tony leans his head in her direction and closes his eyes. He wants to stay awake for a minute and enjoy this moment, but he knows he must go to sleep. Still, he hopes that, when he stares into darkness again, he can remember this moment as something special...a reason to live. She may not need him. She may not want to be more than his friend. But she is a good reason to live.

He falls asleep.

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Kim thinks about tomorrow and how she might even want to eat and hopes she doesn't have any more dreams and how life is strange and unpredictable. And falls asleep.