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Kim's been writing out her memories, sorting them into "real" and "not real".

It's much easier now, even if certain images will never leave her head, she knows they never happened.

At least, she knows why they happened now. How things changed, why she was stuck there...and she knows that her dad's not dead and that Chase isn't a terrorist.

She still hasn't been spending much time in the bar, but she might go down at some point.

Slowly she's been able to get used to being around people again - but she craves silence more than she ever has before.

'You know the man in that chair wasn't your dad, stop thinking about him,' she commands her mind, but it's no use, she doesn't think she'll ever be able to erase that memory.

He looked at her not with fear but with resignation and the man standing near her, his hand touched her hair and she'd wanted to run but she couldn't move and...

'Stop thinking about it. It's not real. It didn't happen. Stop.'

She holds a few strands of hair in front of her eyes, looking at the color and hating it all over again. 'Need to get hair dye,' she thinks.

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She bites her lip gently, "I know you...I...I love you so much."

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"I love you too," he whispers, voice breaking a little.

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She holds him tightly, "I still dream about it...but I know it's not real."

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"I just wish there was some way I could help the dreams stop."

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"Maybe if you stayed with me it would help."

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"Yeah...yeah, of course." Oh, god, he's missed her so much it hurts, and he doesn't want to sleep alone tonight either.

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She smiles, a real smile, and pulls back. "Okay, I just need to change."

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The smile makes him feel a little bit weak-kneed. "Okay. I'll be out here."

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Kim nods and goes to get bed clothes. She takes the clothes into the bedroom. It's odd but she feels shy and needs the privacy.

She looks at herself in the mirror, still checking her body for phantom bruises. 'They aren't there, they're healed, move on...'

After changing she re-enters the bedroom.

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The Bar never provides Chase with bed clothes, so he's just wearing his typical boxers and t-shirt, sitting on the edge of the bed and watching Niles swim around.

He looks up as she comes into the room and gets up so that she can get into bed.

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She looks over at Niles still swimming and thinks that it must be a magical fish to survive so long.

"Were you taking care of Niles for me?" She asks as she pulls back the covers and slides into bed.

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He gets into bed beside her. "I think Chris must have been," he says, feeling a little guilty even though he wouldn't have been able to take care of the fish, for more than one reason.

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No, Kim decides, he must be a fish with a very strong will to live.

She tentatively moves closer to Chase and rests her hand against his chest.

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He closes his eyes and slips an arm around her waist, nestling closer.

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She closes her eyes.

In his arms she feels safe. Will always feel safe. She just hopes that he understands what she will ask him to do in a few days.

"Goodnight."

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He's just so unbelievably happy to have her back, to have the familiar warmth of her body in his arms and to know that she's going to be okay, that everything's right again. "Goodnight," he whispers, tucking the covers in around them.

[OOC: Is that a wrap?]

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[ooc: I believe so, awww sleep.]

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[OOC: *squee* They're just so cute.]

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[ooc: Yes. Yes they are *squee* -- of course when she breaks him in a few days not so cute but for now? CUTE]