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Kim left the cells and meant to go back to her room. But her dad was in her room and Chase was probably with Angela in his room and she couldn't face any of them at the moment.

'Can't be true, just can't be true'

Her dad and Chase? Impossible. But Ramon made it sound plausible and Chase did have that hero worship, 'hero worship or crush?' And she is so like her father, is she just a substitute for someone that Chase can't have? 'Don't think this way he loves me would never hurt me like that...'

But when she stops thinking about the ending of the conversation she has to deal with the images from the other things Ramon said - 'Would have let you live afterwards' and the even longer drawn out torture that he had planned for her dad.

She's running, having been unable to sleep, changing into exercise clothes in her bathroom and hoping praying that her dad wouldn't wake up. 'Can't tell him about seeing Ramon, talking to Ramon, he'll be angry, he'll be hurt...'

She breathes in and out as she pushes her body further because she can't *think* about this anymore, but at the same time it's all she can imagine. Her pulse races and she barely notices what song is playing on her iPod.

Eventually, she stops running and gracelessly falls to her knees and then lies down on the grass, unable to hear anything beyond her own breathing, even the music is faint. She almost holds onto the ground and then she can see nothing but the images that she's been trying to push away and she makes a sound low in her throat as she closes her eyes.