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agirllost'I am the bud, I am the flower, be the flower, feel the sun on your petals, feel yourself opening up to the Source...' she thinks as she sits crosslegged on her bed. At the moment though, she feels more like a weed than a rose.
Other things keep interrupting her practice - thoughts about her family she can't push out of her mind, worries about the future, and most of all this sensation that she's standing at the edge of a cliff and about to jump off. But she feels, for the first time in weeks, that something will catch her if she takes that first step.
Selae was a patient teacher and she answered Kim's questions without making her feel like an idiot for asking them. Some of what her teacher said was too familiar for comfort, but she listened intently, and tried to follow along.
'I am the bud. I open up to the world, I surrender to the Source...' she thinks again, trying to clear her mind.
'I've frightened them all, I've hurt them, and I don't know how I'm going to make things right again'
She almost had Saidar and it slips away, pushing her back to the beginning of trying to clear her mind.
Other things keep interrupting her practice - thoughts about her family she can't push out of her mind, worries about the future, and most of all this sensation that she's standing at the edge of a cliff and about to jump off. But she feels, for the first time in weeks, that something will catch her if she takes that first step.
Selae was a patient teacher and she answered Kim's questions without making her feel like an idiot for asking them. Some of what her teacher said was too familiar for comfort, but she listened intently, and tried to follow along.
'I am the bud. I open up to the world, I surrender to the Source...' she thinks again, trying to clear her mind.
'I've frightened them all, I've hurt them, and I don't know how I'm going to make things right again'
She almost had Saidar and it slips away, pushing her back to the beginning of trying to clear her mind.
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Date: 2006-01-11 12:29 am (UTC)"Compulsion has many limitations, and can be used for immense good."
A pause.
"Generally, only someone almost unnaturally skilled could cause harm with it. The signs of its use are easily evident for those aware of it."
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Date: 2006-01-11 12:43 am (UTC)She's remembering when Jasin offered his services and how tempted she was to let him "fix" things.
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Date: 2006-01-11 12:47 am (UTC)"Our society has to deal with violent elements just like any other. Those with significant psychiatric problems can be repaired, though sometimes counseling is more effective."
A pause.
"Those with a history of doing violent crimes are bound against ever harming another individual. Though, this is usually done with ter'angreal
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Date: 2006-01-11 01:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-11 01:19 am (UTC)"A ter'angreal. It is one of three types of devices that utilize the One Power. A ter'angreal is the term for any device that is meant to do one specific thing, they are as wide and varied as the One Power itself."
A pause as her tone continued to wax pedantic.
"Now, an angreal is a very specific device. It is an amplifier. By drawing the One Power through an angreal, you could draw far more of the One Power than you could otherwise do so safely."
A small quirked smile.
"Rarer still is the sa'angreal. It is like an angreal with a far greater capacity. Using it not only could you use an amount of Saidar that would normally burn you to a cinder, but that would burn any Channeler to a cinder as well. You could match the greatest of Channelers with a Sa'angreal."
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Date: 2006-01-11 01:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-11 01:27 am (UTC)"It is simply a matter of drawing more. Though you must constantly be aware of your potential. If you draw more than your potential then you run the risk of burning the ability to Channel out of you, or burning yourself to a cinder."
More Saidar flowed into Mesaana so she seemed to be brimming with the One Power. She was only at a fraction of her full power but the Suppression made it seem that way.
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Date: 2006-01-11 02:55 am (UTC)"Lady Selae...don't hurt yourself trying to show me."
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Date: 2006-01-11 03:01 am (UTC)"Do not worry, Lady Kim. I know my limits."
These were not them.
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Date: 2006-01-11 03:11 am (UTC)"Do you have any suggestions on how to concentrate more?"
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Date: 2006-01-11 03:37 am (UTC)"Not in particularly, practice is all that it takes. To become truly skilled, you will need to be able to touch the Source under any conditions, lest it leave you when you need it most."
A pause.
"I can work with you, though. Sometimes having another person there can be helpful."
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Date: 2006-01-11 04:24 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-11 04:30 am (UTC)"I know someone who was able to open a Gateway, a very difficult thing, mind you. While dying of poison. It was... most impressive. He survived actually."
She could not believe that Asmodean survived that.
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Date: 2006-01-11 04:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-11 04:39 am (UTC)"No, he was a colleague of mine."
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Date: 2006-01-11 04:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-11 04:44 am (UTC)"I taught at the Collam Daan, a very prestigious institution for a time. Now, I do private tutoring at a school in my hometown of Mar Ruois."
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Date: 2006-01-11 05:01 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-11 05:05 am (UTC)"Often not. My field is in experimental techniques in extra-dimensional spaces. Channeling is just a part of who you are, and you serve others with those abilities as the need arises."
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Date: 2006-01-11 05:10 am (UTC)"So channeling helps you with that?"
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Date: 2006-01-11 05:13 am (UTC)"Yes, it does. I can enter Vacuoles... bubbles in the Pattern of reality, it is not that simple, of course, but it suffice for this occasion Many different experiments can be performed inside of a Vacuole."
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Date: 2006-01-11 05:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-11 05:22 am (UTC)"It often is, but you will have time to learn such things eventually."
A pause.
"Now, would you like some help with your exercises?"
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Date: 2006-01-11 05:24 am (UTC)"I would."
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Date: 2006-01-11 05:28 am (UTC)"Do you have a place you prefer to sit?"
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