After Milliways
May. 24th, 2006 11:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
agirllostKim blinks, looking down at herself and at her surroundings...somehow, no time has passed at all. On instinct, she feels for the strap of her laptop case, realizing that she left it back in the bar...with all her notes. Although she doesn't think it will work, she goes back through the doors, finding only the outside of the library.
"Dammit," she whispers, going in and out of the library one more time, this time drawing strange looks from some of the students outside smoking. At least she remembered her purse, which means she won't have to call Chase and ask him to pick her up.
Chase.
She rubs her thumb over the spot where her engagement ring used to be and she knows that he'll see something different about her immediately. She looks older, she noticed it when looking in the mirror at her Dad's house. So much has happened over a short period of time. She hasn't seen Chase since before everything.
Suddenly, there's no one left to pretend for, no one to be strong for or have to keep from worrying. It's just her, walking toward the parking lot of her college, dusk falling around her, competely annonymous and alone, completely screwed as far as her thesis goes because all her notes are still near her laptop, which is in her Dad's suite, and she has no way of controlling how she'll get back.
Or when.
She focuses on the easy things first: Opening the door, starting the car, finding a radio station. Next, harder things, like the way the back of her chair rubs against her scar or the fact that it's been so long for her she has to think about the route to take home, and of course what the hell she's going to say to Chase when he asks her what happened, or if he even does.
It's been so long she is afraid her feelings have changed and so many things to tell or not tell - is it cruel to tell him about her dealings, would it be unfair to burden him with problems he cannot control, would her Dad's kidnapping and torture -- would *Angie's* kidnapping and torture be fair to tell him. In the Bar, it made sense to get him and bring him back, but if she can't --
She sniffs, rubbing her eye with the side of her hand, realizing that for the first time in months, she is truly alone.
[ooc: Thread that follows contains adult content. Warnings for sex and mild violence.]
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Date: 2006-07-09 12:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-09 03:11 am (UTC)So much has happened and he has no idea. She's tempted to go back to the car and drive over to Miriam's, ask to spend the night, but that would only be avoidance and she would have to face Chase tomorrow.
She turns the knob, pushing the door open and for a moment hopes that she'll see Milliways. She's not ready to go home, but, no one asked her opinion.
Instead, she's inside the house and resists the urge to make herself invisible.
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Date: 2006-07-09 04:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-09 04:21 am (UTC)"Hi." Her lip trembles and she folds her arms over her chest, hoping he won't see her hand.
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Date: 2006-07-11 02:45 am (UTC)"You've been in the Bar?"
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Date: 2006-07-11 02:47 am (UTC)"I - I lost my ring."
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Date: 2006-07-11 02:49 am (UTC)He trails off. It seems to be a little more serious than that, and cluelessness is not going to help the situation.
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Date: 2006-07-11 02:54 am (UTC)"You're really here."
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Date: 2006-07-11 03:09 am (UTC)There is room next to him on the couch, and a soft pillow.
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Date: 2006-07-11 03:14 am (UTC)"I'm not the same."
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Date: 2006-07-11 03:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-11 03:21 am (UTC)"I almost gave in," she whispers, looking down at her hands.
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Date: 2006-07-15 02:29 am (UTC)"Gave in?" He doesn't move away.
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Date: 2006-07-15 02:36 am (UTC)"My - my teacher wasn't what she seemed."
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Date: 2006-07-15 03:06 am (UTC)...snooty bitch who worked Kim like a slave until it made her sick...
"What was she?" he whispers.
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Date: 2006-07-15 03:08 am (UTC)"Evil."
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Date: 2006-07-15 03:14 am (UTC)He closes his eyes and shifts closer to her.
"I should have known."
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Date: 2006-07-15 03:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-15 03:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-15 03:30 am (UTC)Just the name makes her stomach twist and without realizing it she reaches out for his hand.
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Date: 2006-07-17 11:26 pm (UTC)Ishamael. Always Ishamael.
"You are special. Special enough that you could get away. You didn't give up."
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Date: 2006-07-17 11:38 pm (UTC)Instead of holding onto his hand, she's sobbing against his shoulder, clutching at the back of his shirt and trying to get as close to him as possible.
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Date: 2006-07-17 11:48 pm (UTC)"You're back. You're back and you're home and you're alive and you're with me." He kisses her shoulder and squeezes.
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Date: 2006-07-18 12:04 am (UTC)She'd almost forgotten. Hadn't let herself think about it too much, because she couldn't miss him too.
After a few moments she leans up to press her lips against his shoulder and moves so that she's almost in his lap.
"I need you."
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Date: 2006-07-18 01:19 am (UTC)"Okay."
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Date: 2006-07-18 01:24 am (UTC)"Need you."
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Date: 2006-07-18 01:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-18 01:30 am (UTC)She gasps in pain as his hand brushes against her scar and kisses him, trrying to mask her reaction.
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Date: 2006-07-18 01:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-18 01:35 am (UTC)She kisses him again, still tasting her own tears.
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Date: 2006-07-18 01:40 am (UTC)"Gonna make you forget all about it," he whispers.
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Date: 2006-07-18 01:45 am (UTC)"You can't promise that..."
But her hands are slipping under his shirt.
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Date: 2006-07-18 02:08 am (UTC)yes it is possible damn it...we all need to forget...
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Date: 2006-07-18 02:23 am (UTC)He might notice her kiss is less gentle and her teeth scrape his skin when she presses an open mouthed kiss to his neck.
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Date: 2006-07-18 02:32 am (UTC)"Yeah--"
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Date: 2006-07-18 02:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-18 02:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-18 02:52 am (UTC)She bites his lip, pressing her hips against his, and dragging her nails over his stomach.
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Date: 2006-07-18 02:56 am (UTC)"Kim--whatever you want--"
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Date: 2006-07-18 03:11 am (UTC)Panties are easier to slide out of and she lowers herself down onto him, exhaling as she pulls him closer.
She waits only a few seconds before moving, leaving marks as she holds onto him.