Sharing news with Moiraine
Nov. 26th, 2006 10:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
[Millitimed to a few weeks ago]
Behrooz is in her head. She's in his. She wanted to believe it was a side-effect, a delusion, but it's real and happening and she can see no way to sever the link. She would laugh if she wasn't so afraid of everyone's reaction to this news.
Elan. Oh God. Elan was here and could still be here and so many people to warn, and Kim knows she should tell everyone she can find but there's only one person she needs to talk to right now.
Moiraine.
She knows that her teacher has answers, will be able to...solve something, anything, because she keeps feeling Behrooz in her mind and old injuries that she'd forgotten but that his body still remembered. Her hand drifts up to touch her neck and she forces it back down.
Elan almost killed Behrooz. Her stomach turns thinking about it and it makes her want to rip something to shreds. She's trying to work on impulse control. But Elan's back and Behrooz is tied to her and if anyone knows how to deal with both situations, it's her teacher.
Kim reaches Moiraine's door and knocks, hoping that she's available.
Behrooz is in her head. She's in his. She wanted to believe it was a side-effect, a delusion, but it's real and happening and she can see no way to sever the link. She would laugh if she wasn't so afraid of everyone's reaction to this news.
Elan. Oh God. Elan was here and could still be here and so many people to warn, and Kim knows she should tell everyone she can find but there's only one person she needs to talk to right now.
Moiraine.
She knows that her teacher has answers, will be able to...solve something, anything, because she keeps feeling Behrooz in her mind and old injuries that she'd forgotten but that his body still remembered. Her hand drifts up to touch her neck and she forces it back down.
Elan almost killed Behrooz. Her stomach turns thinking about it and it makes her want to rip something to shreds. She's trying to work on impulse control. But Elan's back and Behrooz is tied to her and if anyone knows how to deal with both situations, it's her teacher.
Kim reaches Moiraine's door and knocks, hoping that she's available.
no subject
Date: 2006-11-27 03:17 am (UTC)"You may enter, Kim."
no subject
Date: 2006-11-27 03:27 am (UTC)But if so, the other side of that link is completely silent.
Kim steadies herself and opens the door.
She's not sure where to start and is sure her teacher will be disappointed that she didn't come right away.
"Is this a bad time?" She can't not tell her about Elan and Behrooz, but a note would be so much easier.
no subject
Date: 2006-11-27 03:54 am (UTC)"The work that I am pursuing currently can be set aside at present," she says. "It is not a bad time, therefore."
Dark eyes are sharply assessing as she studies Kim.
"How are matters with you?"
no subject
Date: 2006-11-27 03:59 am (UTC)She looks down, "Something went wrong."
no subject
Date: 2006-11-27 04:16 am (UTC)"Tell me, then."
The Aes Sedai's tone is perfectly calm, even reassuring.
no subject
Date: 2006-11-27 04:25 am (UTC)"A friend of mine almost died on Sunday and I couldn't Heal him but I thought I could give him some of my strength but now we - I - knew when he woke up, he knew when I was at his door...and that - that's impossible, isn't it?"
She glances up, hoping for reassurance.
no subject
Date: 2006-11-27 04:47 am (UTC)"It is not impossible, actually." Her tone remains just as calm as before, but her gaze is much more intent, now.
"If you are willing to allow it, then there is something I would see."
no subject
Date: 2006-11-27 04:54 am (UTC)"It's not?" Her voice is a little softer and she nods, trusting Moiraine completely.
no subject
Date: 2006-11-27 05:34 am (UTC)She reaches out to touch Kim's forehead, very gently, and bright silver threads of light twist from her fingertips and dance across the younger woman's hair and temples, seeking-- and finding.
Kim may feel a gentle brush of Spirit shiver across the link in her mind even as Moiraine releases saidar and studies her carefully.
"I would not have thought you could find your way to such a thing as this, untrained in it."
A pause.
"How very desperate you must have been."
no subject
Date: 2006-11-27 05:47 am (UTC)And she shivers slightly as she feels a touch that's not a touch against something that is outside of her and yet a part of her now.
"What? What did I -- " She's unable to keep the fear out of her voice. "It will go away, won't it?"
no subject
Date: 2006-11-28 04:17 am (UTC)"Not in and of itself, Kim." Her calm tone is quiet and steadying. "But do not think of it as something of harm, if you can, for it is not."
"What you have done is to bond a Warder."
no subject
Date: 2006-11-28 04:24 am (UTC)"A warder?" Kim's eyes narrow as she thinks. "Does that mean that Behrooz is...a kind of shield?"
no subject
Date: 2006-11-29 03:51 am (UTC)Her tone is very dry.
"Although protection is considered part of it, of course."
no subject
Date: 2006-11-29 04:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-11-29 05:02 am (UTC)"You will be aware of him, and he of you; I myself have found it something like the feel of a knot of emotions in the back of my mind. You will know where he is at all times, or should, and will be able to draw upon his strength for support, and he upon your power for endurance and Healing, among other things."
no subject
Date: 2006-11-29 06:32 am (UTC)"You have a warder?" She thinks about the people she's seen around Moiraine, but can't pick one out. "Are there - I mean, is your warder aware of actions or just emotions?" She's trying to ask something but doesn't want to say the words.
no subject
Date: 2006-12-02 03:14 am (UTC)"I have, in the past," Moiraine says, finally. "For more than twenty years, as it happens."
A pause, and she tilts her head, studying Kim carefully.
"Actions?"
no subject
Date: 2006-12-02 03:23 am (UTC)And she almost blushes. "Actions, like when you're sleeping, or training, or...other activities." She finishes softly.
no subject
Date: 2006-12-02 03:26 am (UTC)The Aes Sedai studies her for a moment, and then inclines her head slightly.
"I see. It is not as though the one bonded is present and looking over your shoulder, Kim, but with time one may learn to discern from context and emotion something of what may be occurring."
A pause.
"What does your friend think of this situation?"
no subject
Date: 2006-12-02 03:33 am (UTC)"So then it's removable?" Her voice is hopeful.
"I guess not, but more that I," she forces herself to look up at Moiraine, trying not to hide when things get difficult, even if she's still tempted to do so. "I'm getting married soon." And she almost holds up her hand.
"Behrooz? We only just talked, he doesn't really...know the situation."
But she can sense his frustration and discomfort.
no subject
Date: 2006-12-02 03:57 am (UTC)"It is meant to be permanent unto death," she says. "However, it is also not a thing that is usually done by accident, although there have been times in the past when such a bonding was made against the other's will."
There is something of cool distaste in her tone as she says this.
"To unweave what is woven is often more complicated a matter than weaving it in the first place. Still, such things are not impossible, should you truly wish it so."
A beat.
"I have something of an interest in Behrooz, as it happens."
no subject
Date: 2006-12-02 04:23 am (UTC)Now, she does look away.
"I'm so sorry that I did this to him, but I couldn't let him die...I - I had to do something. Do you think he'll forgive me?" She can't hide her worry and knows it's not a question that Moiraine answer.
Her eyes narrow slightly, "Interest?"
no subject
Date: 2006-12-02 04:50 am (UTC)Her advice is calmly given, a clear contrast to Kim's worry.
"Certainly," she adds. "He is a Wolfbrother, after all."
no subject
Date: 2006-12-02 05:01 am (UTC)And she nods again, "I know. He can...sense things."
no subject
Date: 2006-12-02 05:28 am (UTC)"There are different customs for the different Ajahs when it comes to bonding Warders," she explains, after a moment.
"Those of the Green may have more than one Warder at a time, for example; those of the Blue, by tradition, choose one. As the bond is meant to be permanent until death--"
She shrugs, expressively. There is a pause, and then,
"I am something of an exception. The Wheel weaves."
(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From: